Negative Thoughts

In the early morning of the night, I lay here, crying, thinking about all the bad things I've caused and the pain I've created. I promise you I never meant to do such harm. It's something I can't seem to control, no matter how hard I try. You're in love with a monster! I'm a wreck, a lost cause, an abandoned case. I am terrible for you. These pretty looks hide nothing but pain and sorrow. As innocent I am, I am nothing but trouble. My heart bleeds for you, but I can't have you, for it's way too dangerous. I love you and I hate me. I cause too much pain, you're better off dating someone like Takeisha Jones or Rihana.. I'm sorry, but I hate causing you so much pain. It hurts me too.. I'm an idiot and I belong 6 feet under or locked up in a padded cell in a straight jacket.

-Inner, Dark, Conscious

It's A Pain

It's a pain
In my chest
When I know
I can never
Be enough
For another.
I'm broken.
I'm alone.
I'm difficult.
I'm sensitive.

Everything is wrong
About me.
I push
To the extent
Where You
Don't even want to be
Around me.
I hold
Onto little things
And big things.
You'll start
To hate me
For never forgetting.

I am
No good
For anyone.
I am better
At being alone
So that I
Don't have to
Worry about
Hurting someone
I care
Deeply for..

It's a pain
In my chest
To cry
Every night
Spent alone
In my room.

The world
Would be
Better off
With Me
Gone...

Millie J. Skosher

I Feel Nothing

I Feel Nothing
Because of lies
I use to feel Anger ,Sorrow ,& Excitement
Because of things that were said things that were lies and because of lies I feel nothing I will never love because of lies Never be truly happy because I feel nothing because of the lies .I live in lies the same damn lies I was told when I was a young child is the same BS lies other little girls get told because of lies that dead beats tell us we feel nothing because of the lies that our boyfriends tells us we feel nothing because ever time you tell me something there's always a emotion to it but because of lies  I feel nothing

Dawanna R. Morgan

Not So Funny

I feel
So alone
In a room
Full a people.
A class
Full of peers.
The house
I call home.
No one understands
The pain
I hold inside.
It's come to a point
Where I can't
Even cry.

You think
You know me,
But really,
You don't.
I believe
I was born
To be alone.
Everyone loves me,
Yet I don't feel the love.
Everyone adores me,
Because I'm a lot of fun.

Do you not see,
It's all a joke!
You don't really care!
You don't care at all!
It was only a façade
For sake of my family.
No one could really handle
Me at my worst.
Ah, you must go now,
For worst is soon to come.
I hope you see,
I'm not all fun.

Millie J. Skosher

Dear Loved One..

I'm feeling lost
Yet I know I'm found.
You make me feel safe,
And secure.
I'm absolutely glad
That I let you into my life.
You bring me happiness, laughter, and love.
It's nearly impossible
To stay mad at you,
Especially since
You always make me smile,
One way or another.

Now,

I need you to tell me
If I'm a terrible person or not

Since I am guarded with you

Because of my exes.
In the past,

My heart's been torn,

Broken,

And shattered

Into oblivion.
I now cannot stand

The single thought

Of losing you.
Not to a female

Or anything

That could rip you

Away from me.
Your heart

Is in my pocket,

And mine in yours.
I sincerely ask,
That you take

Extra special care

Of my heart,

As I will yours.

Millie J. Skosher