A revisit of that Dark Path...

Pain leading me down that Dark Path once again...

I see myself Traveling back down that dark path.
The same path I've traveled so many times...
Something I will never forget.

Why are you feeling this way again?
Well, there are the littlest things that set me off...
I'd love to go into detail about that trigger,
But it'd be a dead giveaway,
'Fore I've been hurt by this one person so many times,
And I hope for things to get better,
But they never do.

Yes we all have our own home problems to deal with,
But this has affected me so many times, Rp AND Rl...
To a point where I start to doubt wether I can survive in both without the other...
So I sit here with tears running down my face,
Wondering if I was ever on his mind while he was happy with another.
Yes he told me he felt the same,
But nothing really changed... Because the feeling wasn't really there for him..
I was the only one..,

So I stand here, once again, wondering
What will be...
I stand, staring down that Dark Path,
That, it seems, I'm destined to travel down once again.
'Fore everything I see...
Only reminds me of how I'm not able
To be with him,
Because of two things
'Her and my Parents.

I feel alone when it comes to him,
Cause he was really the first,
And still is.
And to not be able to be with him,
Kills me dearly
Since we're really close.
I hate how he's my friend aswell,
'Fore I cant leave him alone,
Without hurting him too.

I always wished that it had gone about differently,
So my heart wouldn't be so fragile as it is.
But I can't time travel and undo what was done.
So I must sit through this,
Helpless and Alone...
Ah, How Insanity seems like the perfect escape right now...

Broken Down,
Piece by Piece,
Once again
But by another..

Chaya M. Darkness