Shot Down... Once Again

Laid my heart out
On the line
But it was shot down
Once again.
Just like before,
Left for another..

Got me guessing,
What the fuck
Is wrong with me?
The second time,
I've been put down,
Seen only as a friend
To one I truly loved.

Maybe it wasn't meant to be
Wasnt meant for me to find love
In this life
Or this world.

People ask,
"Would you give up your happiness for another to be happy?"
I reply,
"I would."
And I'm quickly regretting that answer...
But what's the point of being happy,
When that other isn't happy with you?
So I guess I did the right thing,
But I'm damn sure hating it.

It's in my genes,
My instict,
To give up myself,
For another.
But when the time comes
For someone to do the same,
I'm left alone..
Deserted.

Exactly like before,
Except this time
It hurt worse.

I've been shot down
Once Again.

Chaya M. Darkness

Finally Found Myself...

I've Finally Found Myself,
In You.
You've made me see the light,
In the Darkness.
And for that,
I give you my all,
Everything I can
Just so that I can have you
All to myself.

Thank You,
For being there
In a time
When I needed you most.
You're the best I ever had
And could have. <3

As you promised me,
I promise you that
I'll never hurt you
And do everything I can
To be with you and make you happy.
I Promise.

You have finally made me see that
I've Found Myself in You. ♥

Chaya M. Darkness

Satisfied With Where I Am .

This very day,
I sit with a smile on my face
Finally.

I've been waiting forever
To belong somewhere.
And for once,
I do.

I only have a few people
To thank for such a gift.
But I thank EVERYONE
For everything that happened
That pushed me
To finally accept myself
For who I am
And be happy,
With another who accepts me,
As me.

And I'd love for that person,
They should know who they are,
To smile and feel loved,
Because you helped me finally realize
That I belong somewhere
In this world.


If we're meant to be together,
We'll be together.
We'll over come any obstacles
Thrown our way.

Love you all. : ) ♥

Chaya M. Darkness