Shot Down... Once Again

Laid my heart out
On the line
But it was shot down
Once again.
Just like before,
Left for another..

Got me guessing,
What the fuck
Is wrong with me?
The second time,
I've been put down,
Seen only as a friend
To one I truly loved.

Maybe it wasn't meant to be
Wasnt meant for me to find love
In this life
Or this world.

People ask,
"Would you give up your happiness for another to be happy?"
I reply,
"I would."
And I'm quickly regretting that answer...
But what's the point of being happy,
When that other isn't happy with you?
So I guess I did the right thing,
But I'm damn sure hating it.

It's in my genes,
My instict,
To give up myself,
For another.
But when the time comes
For someone to do the same,
I'm left alone..
Deserted.

Exactly like before,
Except this time
It hurt worse.

I've been shot down
Once Again.

Chaya M. Darkness