It's a Feeling

It's a Feeling
To feel
Of a chance
Of infidelity
On the part
Of your significant
Other.

So far in,
With said feelings
And emotions,
Would I even consider
Such events to occur.
But with that nap nightmare,
And confirmed possible match
Of who the girl could be,
Does my heart ache
For such said truth
To not be known.
Believe it or not,
Sometimes
It is better
To be kept
In the dark.

It's a Feeling
I wish
To not know.
Yet, sadly,
I do.
This feeling sucks
And I very much so
Wish to not feel it.
Not now,
Not ever.

If only,
He could prove me
Wrong..
Then everything
Would be peachy
Again.
But until then,
I must sit
And suffer
In silence
Of a future
I wish to not come.
He says it won't,
But after tonight,
My mind doubts it
And I hate it.

'It's just a dream',
He said..
'You have nothing to worry about',
He said..
Then why do I
Feel this feeling,
So deeply?
This girl,
You said I didn't
Have to worry about,
I now
Have to worry about,
For the sake of this relationship..

Oh,
What a feeling
This is..
I hope
It's only a feeling,
And nothing more.

Millie J. Skosher

The Worst Nightmare [R]

I wrote this to 'Bae' so it's in first person towards him. All the You's and what not is 'Bae'
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I Woke up hot, scared, and about ready to cry. First, you had a sister named Cici and we were at y'all house in her room. Idk who it was but one of your chick friends showed up and all your attention was on her. Y'all flirted in front of my face like it was nothing. You 'got hot' and took your shirt off. She was already dressed in skimpy ho shit. Y'all used to always play some damn game that ended up with y'all two in Cici's closet. But when y'all got in there, you didn't even notice I was in there too.. Y'all was making out and shit and stripped each other naked. You rolled back then looked at me for once, asking me if I wanted to suck your dick. I ignored you and u just shrugged, taking the other girl into your arms, spreading her out so y'all could fuck. When you went in I couldn't take it, I grabbed cici outside of the room to talk to her. I asked her that if you were a virgin but you're in there doing that, doesn't that mean your not a virgin anymore? She said yes. I said ok, I had to make sure I wasn't wrong.. Then I told her how I thought about letting you be my first and everything since you told me you weren't a virgin.. She said well she got him now, y'all both do. I'm like no, there is no damn sharing and I told him that! She shrugged then left.. I could still hear that girl screaming and shit. But when I got back to the room, y'all were done and only dressed in underwear and shit. I sat on the edge of the bed, the room silent asf. You didn't look at me or say nothing. You just simply kiked me 'Yeah, You're mad at me.' I was about to go off on the both of y'all but then I woke up when I started crying.

Millie J. Skosher