It's a Feeling

It's a Feeling
To feel
Of a chance
Of infidelity
On the part
Of your significant
Other.

So far in,
With said feelings
And emotions,
Would I even consider
Such events to occur.
But with that nap nightmare,
And confirmed possible match
Of who the girl could be,
Does my heart ache
For such said truth
To not be known.
Believe it or not,
Sometimes
It is better
To be kept
In the dark.

It's a Feeling
I wish
To not know.
Yet, sadly,
I do.
This feeling sucks
And I very much so
Wish to not feel it.
Not now,
Not ever.

If only,
He could prove me
Wrong..
Then everything
Would be peachy
Again.
But until then,
I must sit
And suffer
In silence
Of a future
I wish to not come.
He says it won't,
But after tonight,
My mind doubts it
And I hate it.

'It's just a dream',
He said..
'You have nothing to worry about',
He said..
Then why do I
Feel this feeling,
So deeply?
This girl,
You said I didn't
Have to worry about,
I now
Have to worry about,
For the sake of this relationship..

Oh,
What a feeling
This is..
I hope
It's only a feeling,
And nothing more.

Millie J. Skosher